It’s a bit surreal as a senior. I felt it perhaps more real than ever last night at Arrocha Ballpark, as the Jayhawks took on Avila University for our last fall game of the season. My last “fall ball” game… ever.
My fellow senior and co-captain, Mia, grabbed my hand and held it tight during the National Anthem. We had an unspoken vow that we were going to give our whole hearts and try to not take a single pitch for granted.
We couldn’t have asked for better weather: as the sun set on a gorgeous fall evening, the lights came on illuminating the field. Batting lead off, I smoked a ball to left field for a double. Off to a great start, and the game continued in a similar fashion.
It was my last at bat of the night, of the fall season. Bases loaded, and we needed one more run to secure the “eight after five innings” run rule. Two outs. Blood pumping and adrenaline rushing, I stepped up to the plate determined to win. I heard Mia and my sister Rosie’s voices in my ear screaming my phrase Rise up.
First pitch…. ground ball to first baseman. Easy out. To make it worse, I should not have even swung at the first pitch. Why? When the pitcher hits a batter then walks the two in front of you, you should be patient at the plate. A mistake a senior should not be making.
The following inning, Mia picked me up to get the game-ending RBI. Praise God for teammates, literally.
And still it hit me. That burden of perfection. It didn’t matter that I had two hits before that. It was my last fall ball game ever, and I went out making both a mental and physical mistake.
I am overwhelmed by my selfishness because as a competitor, I wanted that hit. I praise God again for the humility and for the reminder that it’s not about me. One more reminder for the night: perfection is impossible, literally.
Rosie said something cool to me this morning that I love and want to share:
“You know, with Jesus on your side, it’s like batting 1.000,” she said. “Every time you make a mistake, it gets washed away, and your average goes back to 1.000.”
I agreed and contributed my own thoughts as well, with last night fresh on my mind.
“It’s like, you many be able to bat 1.000 for a game by going 3-for-3, or maybe even two games if you are on an incredible streak,” I said. “But it is literally impossible in the game of softball or baseball to bat 1.000 (considering you bat multiple times) over a season just like it’s impossible to be perfect without Jesus”
And life is just like that. Just when we think we are doing great, we are living life pretty good without Jesus, and we think we are fine on our own. Maybe we are making good grades, a lot of money, or working our way up in our career and have lots of friends… whatever it may be. But all of those things are temporary. The love and redemption that we have in Christ Jesus is eternal and will never change. It is renewed every morning. It is everlasting and has no end.
2 Corinthians 4:18 says, “So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
Lamentations 3:22-23 says, “Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.”
1 Corinthians 13:8 says, “Love never fails.”
Jesus says in John 10:10, “I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”
Or maybe you aren’t batting 1.000 but you are batting above .400 (in the game of life) and you may be thinking well, I know I’m not perfect, but life isn’t so bad. Can I ask this question: why choose .400 when batting 1.000 is an option to you? Jesus came so that we may live life to the full! So let’s take him up on His offer, die to ourselves, and start pursing His Truth in our lives!